Tag: weakness

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Getting into the role

Spent the past few days really getting into the Fallout 4 role play.  My character is pretty young but I’ve developed enough to explore the landscape without dying every two minutes.

Fallout 4 landscape is massive

I’ve figured out how to Platinum Trophy hunt in Life is strange without messing up my choices.

Life Is Strange™ Taking pix all over the place.

My StarWars Battlefront re-training is pure fun after I figured out how to get the free DLC content with $6 ultimate version.  It caused a hard drive issue with 2 instances of 40+ GB taking up valuable space.  My disk version is now redundant and can be archived.

Still, I’m running a horrendous Kill Death ratio of 10% in multiplier mode but it feels good practising with offline AI enemies. Map knowledge, weapons and skill access is critical to success. Most players I’ve joined have weapons I haven’t even tried out much less mastered.

Anyhow, my primary objective is just to be ready for the Part 2 Beta.

 

STAR WARS™ Battlefront™- Ready for Part 2

Need to upgrade my HeadSet for StarWars

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Fatigue report

40 hours ago, I was on Miami Beach. Now, I’m in Austria shivering and suffering from extreme weakness.

Not sure if this is MG or transatlantic travel fatigue. Either way, I’m gonna take the last remaining  Mestinon® and try to sleep it off.

08:25 The soles of my feet are cold. No typical MG symptoms though.

12:41 Slept for a few hours, body temperature running high. Gonna take some regular headache and fever meds.

14:01 Took some Advil and some Mestinon®…still feeling weak.

God Bless America

Didn’t practice the Candy Dance while I was in Florida…oh well, next time.

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Child’s Play

11:00 – I got sick of dealing with update problems and latency just for a child’s laptop so decided to kick out Windows 10 in favour of any Linux OS.

It’s been a while since I’ve had to mess with laptop operating systems and ran into a MotherLoad of installation problems. 

17:56 – Still trying to overcome a looping problem of “OS not found” WTF.

20:16 – Finally got rid of the troublesome Windows partition and Ubuntu seems to boot up fine and running like a Leopard.

21:08 – Firefox on Ubuntu not compatible with Netflix….Are you fucking kidding me right now?  Error Code: F7344-1204

22:08 – Install Chrome via Command Line and it worked with Netflix

Difficulty level – positivity impossible for your casual end-user

The ultimate tester will be the child herself

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White Lives Matter

Thanks to my PlayStation Plus subscription, the African episode of Assassin’s Creed Black Flag is now free as a stand alone.

The game is dated but I jumped into the Adéwalé character pretty fast and now I know why the following notice is posted on all their games.

Inspired by historical events and characters. This work of fiction was designed, developed and produced by a multicultural team of various religious faiths and beliefs.

Dear White People…run for your lives

It was pretty uncomfortable seeing Black slaves being abused, especially women being chased by White overseers.  The game gently takes you through ways of how to free slaves from Plantations and get your own ship.

Gives me a pretty good reason to Level up to slice and dice White people in the most brutal ways just for fun but I guess the game is on the edge of being politically incorrect.

The series has been running for 10 years.

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Climbing the Ladder of Accountability

Stop, Look, Listen (To Your Heart) The Stylistics original in 1971 is up there amongst my most favourite ballads.  A colleague taught me about the Ladder of Accountability and it dawned on me how many areas of my life have seen me scale and slide down that very Ladder multiple times.

Living on past truimps leads me into a world of resentment and “Do you know who I am” territory.

For the longest time, I languished on Level 4 believing I was actually doing something when in reality I was wasting time and taking the blame.  Right now, I’m probably on Level 6.5 and happy to have documented enough stuff to realise truly what the reality is.

Responsible and Proactive

Level 8 - I Make it Happen
level 7 - I seek Solutions
Level 6 - I Own it
Level 5 - I acknowledge reality
Victim mentality - Reactive

Level 4 - I wait and Hope
Level 3 - I make Excuses
Level 2 - I blame and Complain
Level 1 - I'm unaware or in denial

“You’re alone all the time
Does it ever puzzle you
Have you asked why?”

Thomas Randolph Bell and Linda Diane Creed

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Decision fatigue and how to fight it

The Top 30 Chat Apps are nothing more than Cocaine for the Brain.  The moment you have the app installed you are pulled to finding out if anyone sent you a message or curious to see what others are talking about.

It’s been going on since school times and you know it.

The kid in the corner with no friends is teased and mocked as is the person you doesn’t use Chat Apps.  Opting out of Apps has become a survivalist thing to help combat my susceptibility to Myasthenia gravis (MG).   There are so many downsides though, lack of friends, people don’t know how to contact you, you are always last to know, conversations are out of sync.

Decision Fatigue

Too many freaking things to work out and do.  I need to keep it simple and clean.

Time wasted

I’m a tech so tend to deep dive into any App setting especially the InfoSec implications.

Stress

If I connect or disconnect from anyone they really take it personally when in fact I’m just not feeling good that day or moment.

Wasting energy

My levels fluctuate unexpectedly and nothing is more draining than checking the phone 100+ times a day for a message that I’m emotionally linked to.

Money money

I try to embrace the same clothes idea just so I don’t have to make decisions on what to wear and it’s so refreshing and automatic.  The downside is that people think you have no clothes or maybe you’re stinky.  Quite frankly, I don’t give a dam.

Too many decisions

No meds today, 1 daytime nap, 1 massive personal argument

Exercised 30 mins, feel physically good today, no cough or infections

To the Bat Cave