Boss battles are absolute fun.
I came up against a massive beast that took me 20 mins to work out how to destroy. A brilliant feeling after the epic carnage.
This is my Independence Day
A formidable enemy
Last seen 10 Days ago
It’s been 10 days since my last PS4 session….daaaaaaaaam boy.
My digital life is packed away in a box inside a box inside a secured facility for reasons beyond my control.
Abandoning my second Life does has side-effects though. The real impact of no daily gameplay means there’s no outlet for all the f%*ked up thoughts in my head and I don’t have the sort of money where I can say or do exactly what I want in real life.
Major downside include
Inability to explore new environments Inability to trigger fear Inability to escape from Ordinary life Lack of ability to communicate with like-minded people Lack of escape route for angry or rage Lack of tangible achievement or progress
Current daily game time Zero.
First rule about Mental Health
Rule 1. Don’t talk about mental health, especially when it’s someone you know personally.
Rule 2. Never talk about Mental Health – It stirs up feelings of resentment, anger, guilt and helplessness towards the person who is ill.
Rule 3. Review Rule 1
It sucks but talking about someone’s fragile state of minds is a scary topic. I am totally unequipped to handle it when someone freaks out on me and starts acting “weird”.
There’s an overwhelming feeling of self-preservation that sweeps over me, almost like I think the person’s corrupted mental state is contagious.
My initial instinct is to run away, throw up a drone and snip them from a distance. Unfortunately, tactical moves from Ghost Recon® Wildlands will not work here.
How does one handle someone showing signs of massive memory loss, chronic paranoia, irrational thoughts and threats to self?
Carrots everywhere
“If then” Rewards are being dangled in front of me like low hanging fruit by the very females who should not do it.
If you do this Then, you will get this
It’s really painful especially when you cannot “do” the thing to get the actual reward.
Horizon Zero Dawn™ rewards are plentiful and really enjoyable and some of the rewards are actually reachable, I’ve ranked up to level 15 now. I’m moving slowing on the main story and trying to do as many side errands as possible whilst exploring every nook and cranny.
Real World Travelling is my thing and when this kind of reward is in my face the anguish makes me sick to my gut.
My 2017 travel plan is defined, clear and realistic. Anything outside that will be automatically blocked and ignored.
Clocks change…..At Last
So much for planning sessions, I meant to schedule planned alone time for Horizon Zero Dawn™ but the game is so addictive that my sessions are running between 2-3 hours.
I’m even running 2 parallel games exploring different choice experiences.
Ok back to the drawing board.
Clocks move forward in a few hours. This is such a pivotal time for me, I can now wake up and walk out of my hibernation Man Cave. The so-called SAD (Seasonal affective disorder) season has less impact on me nowadays but the absolute joy of blues sky, blossom and birds singing just reminds me to wake up and live life.
Things I should have done last summer
Prepared for Winter.....avoided Europe Ditched the things that make me sad Got a new wardrobe of clothes Set up roots....stopped living out of a carry-on suitcase
I will survive
Had enough funds to download Until Dawn™.
Ghost will have to wait till next year.
No medication today.