GAME, WORK, GAME, EAT, SLEEP, GAME
ClickOnyxDC Always on PlayStation®5, Always Rambling
Yeah, Love is as annoying as ever.
I, for one, cannot tell the difference between a raging argument and a relationship crushing move.
Jill Francis sang it well in 1993
First you say Yeah Then you say No Tell me to Stop And then you say Go What kind of Fool are you looking for?
I have -37 Emotional Intelligence right now
Block, unfriend, reject and ignore options sting like a Son of a Bitch. Being on the receiving end especially from a Loved one sends me into Rage Quit mode bringing out the rampant idiot in me.
Time to step back and look at a Sunset or two.
As an individual, where do you turn if you think you’ve been breached and your antivirus software tells you nothing?
Your Internet Service providers? Your bank?
Your email provider?
The techie friend of a friend who can find a job in the industry?
Your insurance company?
Your IT department at work?
…or your friendly neighbourhood CISSP® – Certified Information Systems Security Professional.
Generally, though, it’s down to you and Google to figure it out.
In the meantime, you stumble around telling friends you’ve been hacked or that your tech is crap.
Naturally, social media is a massive help to find out if someone else has the same problem. In my experience, the emotional pressure is one of the biggest issues. Feelings of WTF and “why are they doing this to me” cloud your judgement and objectivity.
Right now, I’m swimming in the “get out of debt” river. This has added nothing but daily stress to my existence but this is largely my own doing. I used to check my phones over 100 times a day for incoming messages, social media and alerts. And for a long time, I used people and Loved shiny gadgets and Things.
At the end of a credit line, there is nothing but forced change.
My minimalist trait has kicked in and I’ve ditched over 80% of my personal possession. I’ll be gearing up for Winter properly this time but only going for things I need rather than things I want.
No extra men left and time running out….pressure is on.
No medication today, No aches or pains, No throat infection
A pure upbeat and optimistic rhythm. Given all the crap I’m handling, this is a perfect theme tune for the long weekend.
I’m faced with various degrees of bad and worst decisions as opposed to my normal tactical good or better choices. I’ve allowed external influences to box me into corners with sheer cliff edges and can only blame myself.
In the meantime, I’m limping like a lame duck with crippling pain in my left lower calf muscles, a physical memory of reaching the Alpl 14, 8671 Alpl, Austria summit last week.
On the upside, one of my mentees just secured a full-time job. Feels good to be part of someone’s happiness.
Come, my selector.
“We gonna work it out” Breakwater 1978
Any addiction is usually not a good thing. I’ve always known that I’m actually addicted to being in Love.
The problem, like all addiction, is that going cold turkey is painfully and long lasting. I woke up this morning still in Love but unable to contact the object of my passion.
I need a fix badly.
Wondering around the snow covered mountains in Horizon Zero Dawn brought some comfort and I discovered a few interesting side missions while harvesting 2 nice collectibles. The view up here is tranquil and exhilarating coming down on the zip wire.
I wanted to call her this morning to beg for one more chance but pride stopped me. I don’t believe I deserve another chance. Maybe it’s just better to let her go rather than risk causing more damage and destroying the good memories.
All data including pictures are now safely archived.
I can’t get the Manhattans 1976 track out of my head
Many months have passed us by I'm gonna miss you I can't lie I've got ties and so do you I just think this is the thing to do It's gonna hurt me I can't lie Maybe you'll meet another guy Understand me won't you try, try, try Let's just kiss and say goodbye