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Trance

Suffering from mild tiredness. Only had 3 hours sleep and feeling a little flight fatigue.

Sometimes you just have to wait

Needed a few hours to regenerate.

It usually takes me a day to recover from any return air travel even a 2-hour flight. It’s like an out of body experience where I’m looking at myself from a drone prospective.

During the recovery time, I’m susceptible to suggestions,  prone to error and lack basic judgment.

Consequently, I hibernate before hitting general population.

01:48 – regeneration completed and I feel pumped up and ready for action, no meds taken.

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14 days off-line

I’m back on the PlayStation Network after 14 days of being totally offline. So I didn’t quite make my 30 days goal and actually have no reason to stay off gaming right now.  I kept up-to-date by watching fellow games on Twitch.

Relocating to a new game base is refreshing and I’m actually not on junk food path. This forces me to plan meals and walk up two flights of steps every day.

As usual, going back online means deploying mandatory game and system patches. In my case, I had to upgrade to version 4.55 with 360mb of updates alongside various game title updates.

I jumped into HELLDIVERS™ as a system check and added Abzû to my library.

Abzû was released August 2016 and should be a pretty relaxing game.

With a major certification exam planned for December, I need to re-start my reading and research activity, book my exam and order the courseware.

London is my strength it allows me clarity of thought and is great for clothes shopping and catching up with friends or family.  Wanted to visit GP to get more meds but no time right now.

120mg today.

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I miss Chicken

Meal planning is on the list of  ‘things I need to do better’.  Since July 2016, my unbalanced lifestyle has disintegrated into setting for junk food convenience every 48 hours.

My upper body needs lots of work but generally, health is OK.

No aches and pains, no medication and no eyelid weakness…feeling good.  For months I haven’t been able to work Chicken into my meal plans amazingly because of both financial and logistic reasons.

New Chapter

Time for a fresh new cupboard, new kitchen ingredients and proactive meal planning.  Also, it would be good to build up a small wine collection again.

It’s important to me and my well-being.

My wannabe hobbies outside Gaming and Tech

Cooking
Wine collecting
Cologne collecting
Photography
Body toning
Meditation
Spa treatments
Live Jazz and dining out

Things I’d like to learn

How to ride a bike
How to swim properly

Lately, it’s more like I’m just existing rather than living.  Eating to stay alive as opposed to savouring the flavours and textures.

Time to smell the Roses again.  It would be good find a Church I’m comfortable with but that’s a real long shot right now.

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Man down

Plenty of uncertainty in my life over the next 4 weeks so I’ve opted for the unthinkable, PS4 decommissioning.

Parting from my PS4 is such sweet sorry

Yes, no games for the foreseeable future, well at least until I know where I will be sleeping.

I’ll probably be watching lots of Twitch.TV and thankfully Netflix now has a download offline option.

An old source fronted me some money via a proxy to get me out of this jam that I didn’t even cause.  Unfortunately, I don’t have the time or luxury to contemplate the major repercussions from taking the money.

This is just one of those things I’ll be pondering on my death bed staring up at the ceiling waiting for Jesus to take me. And believe me when I say, I’ve looked straight into the eyes of two dying husbands on separate occasions and the same look of regret haunts me till today.

So while I can still care for myself………

Let’s Play the Music and Dance.  (1936 by Irving Berlin)

No meds today 
Last catastrophic event Friday 7-April 08:20
Subject A suffered massive memory loss, chronic paranoia and delusional episodes.

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Digital Criminals – How they got caught

I took a quick look at some Computer Misuse Act 1990 cases just trying to find some common denominators.

Where’s my money? Emotionally linked to the crime

Here’s what I noticed

  • High victim volume cases against the perpetrators left little solace or compensation for individual victims
  • Perpetrators had an emotional link to the crime, highly motivated by revenge, response to personal disaster or trauma.
  • Insider threat – abuse of trust cases were high i.e. Police officers doing unauthorised searches, teachers broadcasting false info.

Questions to ponder

What kind of internal controls failed?
Did the perpetrator leave too many digital breadcrumbs and careless whispers because of emotion?
What defences did the perpetrators have? I.e. IDS, logs, VPNs, Encryption
What was the real goal of the crime?
Who were the technical accomplices?
Did they know it was wrong? i.e. linked to Malicious Communications Act 1988