I AM your Father

November 17, 2017 – StarWars Battlefront II goes live to the general public. By then the elites, pro-games, streamers and pre-orders would have already racked up hours of gameplay and earns new guns and abilities while they slaughter new or inexperienced players at will.

I’m still undecided as to whether I will be joining the battles. Game sequels carry a mixed taste, basically, you want more of what happened before but you want it 10 times better, faster and bigger.  No doubt EA is banking on grabbing at least 20 million players globally with this title and it being a big part of the annual $3.147 billion net sales.

Tales of the Expected

Star Wars™ Battlefront was simply a childhood movie fantasy come alive.  I remember the first time my anonymous team brought down an AT-AT walker….sheer geek ecstasy.

Hard to see how that feeling of aweeeeesome can be genuinely repeated.

I last played 30-Sept 2016 at 10:23 am after reaching the maximum level 50 at the time.  I never bothered with DLC so Part II kinda feels like a massive DLC.  Even if the single game PvE is a good story, the community will be looking at the 40-PvP campaigns.

It’s gonna be absolute carnage.

Time waits for no one

I had a lot more time on my hands in 2016 and would play non-stop for days without anybody bothering me. I don’t have that luxury solo gamer environment anymore so I would have to recreate it or suffer from unacceptable mid-game interruptions.

Only self-paced titles like Horizon Zero Dawn work well for me. I need to be able to randomly play for 10-60 minutes irregularly without it hurting the quality of the experience.

So, I’ve answered my own question. I will not be joining StarWars BattleFront II this November.

“Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.”  Yoda

Decision fatigue and how to fight it

The Top 30 Chat Apps are nothing more than Cocaine for the Brain.  The moment you have the app installed you are pulled to finding out if anyone sent you a message or curious to see what others are talking about.

It’s been going on since school times and you know it.

The kid in the corner with no friends is teased and mocked as is the person you doesn’t use Chat Apps.  Opting out of Apps has become a survivalist thing to help combat my susceptibility to Myasthenia gravis (MG).   There are so many downsides though, lack of friends, people don’t know how to contact you, you are always last to know, conversations are out of sync.

Decision Fatigue

Too many freaking things to work out and do.  I need to keep it simple and clean.

Time wasted

I’m a tech so tend to deep dive into any App setting especially the InfoSec implications.

Stress

If I connect or disconnect from anyone they really take it personally when in fact I’m just not feeling good that day or moment.

Wasting energy

My levels fluctuate unexpectedly and nothing is more draining than checking the phone 100+ times a day for a message that I’m emotionally linked to.

Money money

I try to embrace the same clothes idea just so I don’t have to make decisions on what to wear and it’s so refreshing and automatic.  The downside is that people think you have no clothes or maybe you’re stinky.  Quite frankly, I don’t give a dam.

Too many decisions

No meds today, 1 daytime nap, 1 massive personal argument

Exercised 30 mins, feel physically good today, no cough or infections

To the Bat Cave

Moody Git

Yes, I’ve been a miserable bastard lately and for no good reason.  It feels like friends and family are always nagging me and on my case but the reality is really different. My failings are magnified and echo to me 24/7 causing a happy/sad loop.  Happy that someone cares, Sad that they are dependent on me.

For the most part, the pressure is financial but actually closer linked to responsibility, dependency and duty.

So, if I’ve hurt you over the past few weeks, I’m sorry.

This has to be the male menopause in full effect.

Cheer up the fool

A long way to go

The Winter months are calling me.  Calling me to prepare for the weather and the darkness.  I try to get as much Sun time as possible knowing that I would not see it for more than 2 hours a day soon.

Ready for FarCry5 next year

Plenty of new titles will be coming this Christmas and FarCry 5 is set for February 27, 2018 smack on the edge of Winter.  By then my life will be totally different, for better or for worst.

I think I’m coming to the conclusion of Horizon Dawn Zero as the game prepares me for what looks to be the final Epic battle.

Over 146 quality hours

Bills (57), Money (-3) and Work (47)

Right now, I’m swimming in the “get out of debt” river.  This has added nothing but daily stress to my existence but this is largely my own doing.  I used to check my phones over 100 times a day for incoming messages, social media and alerts.  And for a long time, I used people and Loved shiny gadgets and Things.

At the end of a credit line, there is nothing but forced change.

Watch your back on the way down

My minimalist trait has kicked in and I’ve ditched over 80% of my personal possession.  I’ll be gearing up for Winter properly this time but only going for things I need rather than things I want.

No extra men left and time running out….pressure is on.

No medication today, No aches or pains, No throat infection