Fallen down

Giving the player free-roaming options in a massive Open World is the ultimate gameplay.

FallOut 4 is an old game but now dominates my game time, typically 3-5 hours a day throughout the night.  I’m still only level 15 and backtracking to farm some of the earlier areas and chapters in the game.

This has triggered poor eating and almost no exercise, binging on peanut butter and jam sandwiches is not a good thing.  I recognise the fact that I’m just trying to escape the “End of month, Run out of money” Blues.

 

“If you want something you’ve never had
You must be willing to do something you’ve never done.”

― Thomas Jefferson

Files restored

Making up after a break-up must produce a massive dose of Dopamine to the brain.

The answer was “Yes” and I’m being restored.  Trouble is my dysfunction is taking its time to re-boot.

So many lessons learned over the past 48 hours.

All of Life’s Problems

“To alcohol! The cause of… and solution to… all of life’s problems”

Matt Groening

Dad used to give me generous pocket money until he got me a job in Tesco in Baker’s Arms, Leyton, London at age 16.  I quickly fell in and out of debt but realised that no money meant no girls and no fun.

The cause of…and solution to my problems has always been money.

Obsessed with balancing the books

The biggest thing I worry about when it comes to money

Actually, it’s probably the fear of not having an income, I have been working for over 32 years straight.

I wish Subject H would take care of money for me

All my life I’ve wondered what a luxury it would be if another human being could take care of things for me like Dad did.  Just give me an allowance to spend as I like.  Unfortunately, no one like that exists in my life.

Whenever I think about money and finances, I feel

My situation awareness has always been pretty sharp, typically using accountant tools to create a balance sheet. I use it to avoid panic and sentimental ideas.

I’m on the defence right now so feel nervous and angry about my negative Net Worth.  I normally avoid risk but my warning, to those close to me, was ignored so now I find myself in exactly the position I was scared of.

The most expensive thing I want is

I think a new car is top of the list. Not sure what type or in which country.  Well, actually,  I want a car in Florida, London and Vienna.

What I find interest about money is

it’s ability to take me to new worlds and meet new people

 

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Bringing Goodness

Some people just bring goodness into your day without actually doing much.

I smiled yesterday from the heart.

Nothing but Happy feelings as Randy Crawford’s  1981 track  “You bring the Sun out” resonated throughout my head.

You bring the stars out
To light the night up
To make the darkness go away

Thanks for yesterday, today and tomorrow.

My Christmas Beach

Apart from a few emotional highs, it’s been a crap year so far. Nothing but problems and aggravating issues.

This is just the time to plan for Christmas.

December 25th, 2017 Daytona Beach

This year I want to spend it with my Mom. This has the potential to cause major upsets in my life but you only have one mother.

I need to be near her for my own sanity and I want to be somewhere safe where the weather is actually warm.