Category: Manhood

It’s a man world

Posted on

The End is the Beginning

Proverbs 8:1
Does not wisdom call out?
Does not understanding raise her voice?

With this info filled world of facts, opinions and fake news how do you find wisdom?  Some unexpected sad news meant I’m back on my PS4 and was able to clean up some left-over quests on FallOut 4.

I’ve never actively hunted wisdom but my thirst for knowledge is always there.  Seems I’ve focussed on skill and totally ignored wisdom.

My self-reliance abandoned wisdom a long time ago, the folk I would lean to as being wise have all died and I’m left with an overload of data and options.  The next few days will be crucial and mark the circle of Life in some many ways.

What I do next will be impossible to erase

Posted on

Where’s my money, Man

I’ve set this year’s PS4 budget at $1000 considering I still have a nice library of older games and a PS4 Plus subscription for free games. Life is a bit of a Blind Play through right now as there are a lot more unknowns going on than usual. By summer I need to be money OP on my US operations taking off the pressure from sunny Brighton.

How do streamers manage their operational budget?

Investing this much on gaming a year isn’t a trivial matter and has a significant impact on friends, family, work and what not.

Software  Hardware  Cost
 PlayStation 4 Pro 1TB Console  $400.00
 Headset  $60.00
 PS4 Plus  $60.00
Overkill’s The Walking Dead  $60.00
FarCry 5  $60.00
Last of Us 2  $60.00
Death Stranding  $60.00
Days Gone  $60.00
Detroit – Become Human  $60.00
Indie titles x 5  $100.00
Total  $980.00

The second life should be able to co-exist with the physical world and in my case, the strategy is to work them in parallel with minimal crossover.  So in practice, my gaming community would never be mentioned to non-gamers.

Keeping the worlds apart is pretty challenging as “people…usually women” are pretty quick to voice their unwanted opinions on gaming and why I do it.

Zero hours gameplay still in progress

Posted on

I’m the bad guy?

There’s a lovely moment in the 1993 thriller Falling Down when the Michael Douglas character realises that he is indeed the Bad Guy in the plot.

I like being in a position of accountability and have been a magnet for responsibility since my first job back in Baker’s Arms, Leyton, East London in the early 90’s.  Things can easily turn sour when I don’t get my own way, my traits of leadership spin to being a tyrant and bully with an unrelenting fist of self-destruction.  Basically, if I can’t have happiness you can’t either.

….but wait, this is just a movie, right?

Today, I AM the Bad guy so back off

Posted on

Burying the survivors

A flight leaves Heathrow at 13:00 on route to Paris, on the way it experiences fatal engine failure and crashes in the Channel. The flight carries 120 passengers 20 in first class.

How many survivors will be buried on the French side and how many in the English side?

 Question the question

It’s interesting to observe how people communicate differently on personal matters depending on the device and method.  There are so many factors that impact the sender’s mental state and tone of the message (personal or work device, signed or unsigned, the speed of transport (instant or slow), public or perceived private.

Formal and personal – hard copy letter.  Shows the sender put in some thought and invested some resources (print, paper, envelope, postage and time costs) before sending and serves as hardcore historical evidence.

Formal and less personal –

email unsigned from a personal mobile device

email unsigned from work or business device

Email digitally signed on mobile device

Email from workstation

Email from laptop

Email from browsers

Many end-users actually see this as cold and heartless as “no one” emails about personal stuff anymore.

Informal and very personal

Instant messaging

WhatsApp

iMessage

VOIP phone calls

The method of choice for a vast amount of people. The user tends to speak from the heart whether angry, sad or happy.  Data is sent with no regard of security levels and assumptive privacy.

Consequences can be catastrophic or a euphoric high.

  • I Love you by email = Low euphoria
  • I Love you by Instant messaging = High euphoria
  • I Love you by letter = High euphoria

Choose your method wisely

 

Posted on

Trophy grinding

My first gym session of the year felt great last night and is the perfect antidote to my PS4 Withdrawal. Grinding my way every night through FallOut4 will have to wait for now.

One pretty bad side effect is my tendency to trigger real-world arguments to feed my Amygdala.  There is nothing better than a “good” argument to say the things you normally keep to yourself.  Of course, for me, arguments have an even worst side effect of sparking MG symptoms of sleepiness and chronic fatigue.

Leaving my PS4 in another country is pretty much the only way I could whine myself off my trophy hunting addiction.

So, the extra 20+ hours I week I’ll gain from no gameplay will be spent on watching Twitch, research study, Movies and exercise.  Most of all I need to work on my Cryptocurrency portfolio.  After the last quarters rise in Coin values, the average business person is acutely aware of the potential and looking for stables ways to make a big buck.

I came across a new breed of company a few weeks ago.  Hash Power Service provider meets Network marketing is an interesting blend that makes it easy for anyone to buy-in but it seems these hybrid business models for Cryptocurrency try to paint too much of a pretty picture for the consumer.  In the meantime,  the Meltdown vulnerability makes it clear that hardware Wallets are probably the way to go in the long-term.

30 mins cardio yesterday…no meds