Binary decisions

Sometimes hard decisions are simply a case of On or Off.

After a Division 2 weekend binge of Level 4 Control Points, Invasion missions and a Hunter mask, I decided to just delete the game from my primary PS4 and jump into the FarCry New Dawn World.  I grabbed the financial bait, a whopping 67% off the list price and the offline, story driven nature of the game.

Don’t get me wrong, deleting the 97+GB of Division 2 was rough especially knowing how much time it will take to re-install but the Raids did not justify the potential time investment. Also, one of my long term fellow gamers became totally obsessed with my skin colour breaking the relatively anonymous nature of online multiplayer games.

Tom Clancy’s The Division 2 – Final mission for now

My personal Mean time to recovery (MTTR)

Having an episode triggered by a simple argument is horrendous for the average Myasthenia Gravis sufferer.  The spike in stress levels become physically real but invisible to most.  In my case, I tend to implode for fear of becoming a bore to friends or family like the person who constantly catches the common cold.

Recover time is slow but steady without take any medication.

Yesterday’s recover time was around 4 hours from Anger /Rage spike followed by extreme weakness then procrastination, ignoring my status and feelings with wishful thinking.  Eventually, I become self-aware again and simply sleep for 3 hours or so waking up somewhat revived.  Problem is that this can be right in the midst of the working day or week.

For me, conflict avoidance is a successful method but sometimes like the sweet, sweet Honey Bee the price of stinging somebody is pretty high.

Tom Clancy’s The Division 2 – Just leave me alone

I hate you so much right now

Advanced persistent threats are one of the most draining of attacks.  The fear factor is high and constant, grinding down the target for a prolonged period.

At this moment in time I am resilient, but the emotion burden is heavy and has a really negative impact on other activities triggering procrastination, rage, thoughts of retaliation and ultimately retribution.

I find myself looking for a source of solace. DENIED

One of the most frustrating screens

Gamer privacy at risk

Division 2 Raids are simply work.  This game mode brings out the best in any squad with 8 players actually working together I see planning, teamwork, persistence, critical learning, voice communications and statistical analysis playing a big part in defeating the bosses.

I’m working on my Merciless build and practicing the explosive damage feature and should be raid ready in July.

Like most online gamers my Data is out there in the wild for anyone to see.  Tracker sites publicly share valuable profile statistics so you can look up your potential squad members easily.

So far, the data looks fair accurate but no doubt paying members get fresher intelligence.

Gamer privacy: There’s nothing a gamer can do to restrict this data…just don’t play would be a solution.

ClickOnyxDC Division 2 Play Details * sourced from https://tracker.gg

Bleeding Kills 141 Top 43%
Burning Kills 1,468 Top 4%
Shocked Kills 78 Top 33%
Ensnare Kills 17 Top 46%
Headshot Kills 2,834 Top 21%
Shotgun Kills 142 Top 31%
SMG Kills 1,509 Top 15%
Turret Kills 261 Top 8%
Pistol Kills 40 Top 43%
Rifle Kills 0
Grenade Kills 131 Top 31%
Addicted to Gaming….hell yeah

Why I Love being an “expert”

The definition of an expert is a person who is very knowledgeable about or has mastery in a particular area.

Here’s another definition of an Information Security Specialist or whatever the Firewall guy is called nowadays.

Expert idiot

I was so unprepared for the Division 2 Raid that I had to go back to the drawing board to look at my built from knee pads to backpack to armour and guns. So much for being an expert gamer.